I have overcome three major problems in my life: shyness, loneliness, and, to a large degree, depression. All three took a long time.
I used to go to church and one of the things we used to say there was that overcoming one’s habitual sins is a gift from God. No one can change themselves.
We called it grace.
It was that thing that changes you almost without your own participation, except that of wanting to change.
And I have changed.
It took a long time, but I am no longer shy, except in the way that is just part of my personality.
And I’m not depressed anymore, except in that necessary way that everyone has to feel sometimes.
I am happy.
And lately, I haven’t been praying much anymore and I haven’t been reading the bible, yet I am feeling better than ever. So I wonder where it really comes from or if maybe I should call it something else.
It’s like magic.
I am hoping for more of that magic.
I know, too, though, that it wasn’t just this magic that helped me get over those things.
It was work and time and maturity.
So there is some trying. There is trying, and there is not trying too hard, and both, I think, are important.